Today I went to my first counseling appointment since moving to Las Vegas. I felt very comfortable and I had a good cry explaining the “burnout” I’m starting to feel. I’m not sure what brought this on and it’s frustrating. The months of October, November, and the beginning of December were really good months. Unfortunately, now I’m feeling burned out in many areas of my life. So it’s time to peel back the layers.
When I started my personal blog in 2016 I decided to be transparent in my healing journey. I wanted to get all the feelings out because it was all buried deep down inside. I could sense that it was not healthy for me emotionally and mentally. Now it’s time for me to figure out how to cope with all the feelings that are now at the surface.
I’d love to be able to say one day that I’m “healed”. But that may not be possible and that’s just reality. So it’s very important that I find balance, coping skills, and support. I can only tell you what is working for me and my experiences.
I know there are people who think sharing too much “personal ” information is not good. There are also people who will try and shame you for speaking publicly about mental health. Then there are the close-minded individuals who say “you should only talk to your therapist about this in a private office”. I want you to know that YOU get to choose how and why you want to share your trauma. No one’s opinion should ever have any control over such pain you/we experienced. After all, it wasn’t our fault!