Victim Advocate

I’ve spent hours, months, and YEARS πŸ‘©β€πŸ’» researching trying to find a career path that aligns with my passion. Being a Survivor myself I want to help others who struggle with trauma/🧠mental health. I remember crying myself to sleep some nights thinking I was looking for something that didn’t exist πŸ€·β€β™€οΈ .

I am so happy to share that I am now enrolled in becoming a πŸ“’ Certified Peer Support Specialist and a Victim Advocate. Now more than ever I truly believe our mental health system needs us!

What’s a Peer Support Specialist❓ A peer support specialist is a person with “lived experience” who has been trained to support those who struggle with mental health, psychological trauma, or substance use. Their personal experience of these challenges provides peer support specialists with expertise that professional training cannot replicate.

I am striving to change the stigma by sharing my own story and my journey. In 2016 I started my personal blog where I spoke out about the trauma I experienced being sexually molested and raped as a child. I’m choosing to be completely transparent in sharing my journey to healing. I want other Survivors to know that you are NOT alone. I don’t care if I don’t know you. I need you to know that I care about you and I STAND by you πŸ€œπŸ€›

Wow the Big 40

As I approach πŸ¦‚ Fabulous πŸ₯€40 YEARS OLD I’ve been thinking a lot. Since I started working on my πŸ’ͺ physical (still a work in progress) and my 🧠 mental health. I see the value in relationships πŸ‘©πŸ‘¦πŸ‘©β€πŸ¦±πŸ‘±β€β™€οΈπŸ‘΅ – that wasn’t always the case, especially since I had closed myself off for so long.

I can genuinely say that I am starting to πŸ’ love myself and all my flaws! You would think πŸ€” loving yourself would be natural and easy right❓ But loving yourself means building 🀝 a relationship with πŸ‘­ yourself. Just like any relationship, it takes effort πŸ₯°, it takes kindness and patience. Also, make yourself ☝️ Priority.

How Do You Measure Success in Your Mental Health Recovery

Typically, when people measure β€œsuccess” in recovery from addiction, it’s with the number of days an individual has maintained sobriety.⁣⁣⁣
Mental Health recovery seems to be an “invisible” 〰️ journey. So to me, it’s important to live with purpose 🌟⁣⁣⁣
Self-care and mental health to me are crucial. This includes physical activity πŸšΆβ€β™€οΈ, quality sleep 😴, good nutrition πŸ₯˜, and hobbies that create enjoyment πŸ§˜β€β™€οΈ. I’ve personally struggled with exercising mainly due to living in a cold πŸ₯Ά climate and having a mood disorder called SAD (seasonal affective disorder).⁣⁣⁣
In addition to maintaining healthy and meaningful relationships. I am building a social connectedness πŸ’« network to stay engaged and support system. Interacting with others boosts feelings 🀩 of well-beingΒ and decreases feelings of depression. Research has shown that one sure way of improving your mood is to work on buildingΒ socialΒ connections.⁣⁣⁣
Measuring success in recovery involves more than tallying the number of “good days”. I think it’s beneficial to improve your quality of life β™₯️ too. ⁣⁣⁣
What has been some of your success❔

GENTRI Works with Saprea to Share a Message

I was invited back to Utah to be part of a project dear to my πŸ’œ I told my story in an interview at Sprea (formerly The Younique Foundation) and my story will be part of The Song called “Believe” by The Gentlemen Trio – Gentri.

100% of the digital download sales will go to Sprea (formerly The Younique Foundation) to help pay for other Survivors to attend.

GENTRI Works with Younique Foundation to Share a Message

We are so honored and grateful to GENTRI for spreading the word about Saprea (formerly The Younique Foundation) and our mission. Their documentary is beautiful and poignant, and the song β€œBelieve” is a message of hope to survivors of child sexual abuse.

My goal is to feel whole not perfect

My goal is to feel whole πŸ’› not perfect. I’m stepping into my 4️⃣0️⃣’s recognizing that the work of my life is to heal πŸ’ my wounds correctly. I’m no longer numb and I can finally feel the pain 🎭 that I buried deep down πŸ•³ inside. And I’m not afraid to feel the πŸ₯ΊπŸ€¬ emotions because I now have my 🧰 toolbox πŸ§˜β€β™€οΈπŸŒžπŸ›. As I continue to learn to ask myself “what do I need⁉️”, I keep adding more ways πŸ€πŸ¦Έβ€β™€οΈπŸ’‡β€β™€οΈ to cope with PTSD πŸ₯Š and find things that make me 😁
I have been πŸ‘₯ reflecting and I can see that I’m on the right pathπŸšΆβ€β™€οΈ. I no longer allow myself to think I am permanently broken. I’m simply mending areas in my life that need some πŸŽ€ TLC. It’s taken a lot of self-reflection to learn to shift my 🧠 mind. My 🎯 goal was to find a way to heal but that’s no πŸ™…β€β™€οΈ longer my goal. The reality is I may never heal fully and that’s okay with me. I have chosen to embrace every experience I went through. Even the memories where I felt like I was πŸ’” broken.

Instead of trying to hide those 🧩 pieces under the 🧹 rug. I am putting them back together with my own special coating of rose gold πŸ–Œ resin to create beautiful seams like the art of πŸ₯£ kintsugi. The truth is I would rather have a broken bowl put together 🌺 beautifully. Then to throw away any pieces leaving it with holes and unusable.
My life’s design is even more beautiful being vulnerable and having found my πŸ—£ Voice. A Strange Beauty has come from processing everything. A 🎁 gift to myself is to show up in this 🌎 world as me, mended breaks and all πŸ’ž.

My dream business

‘ve worked so hard through a lot of self-reflection and finding balance. I am proud to announce my DREAM of having my own business is coming true! Launching January 2019! πŸ“ŒManaging small and cause-based social missions to empower πŸ’« , increase awareness πŸ“ˆ and strengthen ⚑ your message.

My Story and Mission – Podcast 2

Talking about sexual molestation is not easy. But I am striving to change the stigma by sharing my own story and journey.

I choose to be transparent in sharing my story, my struggles and my journey of healing. I want others to know that they are NOT alone. I hope to be able to contribute in my own little way to fill in the gaps. Starting this podcast I truly believe I will be able to release all this negative energy. The guilt. The shame. The anger. The pain.

Thank you for listening!